'Looking Both Ways'

31 December, 2016rodster385Comments (0)


I knew I had put it somewhere! I hunted and searched for what seemed an eternity and finally found it...right where I left it. You've done that, I'm sure...lose a file or a picture on your computer. I'd rather go digging through closets before having to search for something on my laptop. I should organize my files, I suppose. Truthfully, I'd rather go to the doctor for a prostate exam. I might have stretched that a bit.
I found what I had been looking for, a 'Rusty Goat' story I'd written in 2009. I needed a story befitting the new year for 'The Adventures of the Rusty Goat' and this is it. It's pretty humorous if I do say so myself. But as I read through the article, I was actually sort of embarrassed to repost it on the site. The man depicted paints a perfect picture of who 'The Rusty Goat' was back in the day, but I have to add a disclaimer: This is not who I, Rodney Strange, am today.
'The Rusty Goat' mushroomed in popularity back in 2009 as folks from all over the world stopped by to catch up on the weekly adventures of an over-the-hill Saturday night cowboy in search for 'his next ex-wife.' Reading this particular story, I didn't realize how blunt and brutally honest I was in those days. Humorous...yes, but I shamelessly threw myself under the bus with some of these stories.
I suppose taking a look back encourages me to look forward. Standing here today, I know I don't want to go back. I wish to go forward a better man. I recall how a song Tim Mcgraw released a few years back touched me so deeply. In fact, it brought a tear to my eye more than once. It was this chorus that brought a lump to my throat every time I heard it:
I ain't no angel
I still got a few more dances with the devil
I’m cleaning up my act little by little
I’m getting there
I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see
I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get
But I’m better than I used to be
And so today I stand here, looking both ways. Clinging to the words of a song, I step into a new year not in search of 'the perfect woman' as the ol' Rusty Goat would do. I move forward in search of a better year, a better life...and a better man staring back at me in the mirror. Y'all gather 'round....group hug! Happy New Year!

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